isolated_rain
01-25-06, 08:13 PM
This isn't really a poem so to speak, but prose....
Can you look at yourself?
And when you do, if you can, are you disgusted?
Do you see what I see?
Denial, addiction and selfishness
Can you see yourself for what you are?
A liar, a con, A man that has made no progress
Can you see what you have done?
Can you feel? …..anything?
I hate you for the fool you've made out of me
I loath you for your lack of discipline
I cringe at the thought of you
I laugh because it amuses me that you think you are free
For years I wondered what you were all about
Curious if while looking into your eyes I would see myself
Now I am riddled with this hate.
Now I pray every night I am nothing like you.
Is this what they call fate?
Now my curiosity is dead.
Now my love for you is null
I m so happy mom took me and fled.
Your fabricated intoxicated world of miscalculated good intentions and repeated offenses against everyone and everything you come into contact with has bled into what is my world
You seeped through the walls my mother built and made me care.
You had no right! You had no idea. Now…you have no me.
Your probably don't even realize the damage you continue to cause.
You probably have grown accustom to hurting people.
But I ask you, Does it feel different this time? To hurt me…..your blood…
The only child left speaking to you.
Tel me, all of this because????
You claim when you look at me, when you hear me speak, when you hear about my past…you claim you can see yourself in me.
If that is the case…….
God help me, I'd rather die at my own hand than to repeat your predestined, self destructive, pitiful example of a human life.
Your voice was so cold
Your tone was so smug
I thought you might laugh at any moment
Fuck you for breaking your promises
Fuck you for hurting me
Fuck you for coming back
Fuck you
Fuck your excuses
Fuck your reasons
Fuck^your pain
I hope it hurts when you leave this world. I hope you find eternity unbearable.
Can you look at yourself?
And when you do, if you can, are you disgusted?
Do you see what I see?
Denial, addiction and selfishness
Can you see yourself for what you are?
A liar, a con, A man that has made no progress
Can you see what you have done?
Can you feel? …..anything?
I hate you for the fool you've made out of me
I loath you for your lack of discipline
I cringe at the thought of you
I laugh because it amuses me that you think you are free
For years I wondered what you were all about
Curious if while looking into your eyes I would see myself
Now I am riddled with this hate.
Now I pray every night I am nothing like you.
Is this what they call fate?
Now my curiosity is dead.
Now my love for you is null
I m so happy mom took me and fled.
Your fabricated intoxicated world of miscalculated good intentions and repeated offenses against everyone and everything you come into contact with has bled into what is my world
You seeped through the walls my mother built and made me care.
You had no right! You had no idea. Now…you have no me.
Your probably don't even realize the damage you continue to cause.
You probably have grown accustom to hurting people.
But I ask you, Does it feel different this time? To hurt me…..your blood…
The only child left speaking to you.
Tel me, all of this because????
You claim when you look at me, when you hear me speak, when you hear about my past…you claim you can see yourself in me.
If that is the case…….
God help me, I'd rather die at my own hand than to repeat your predestined, self destructive, pitiful example of a human life.
Your voice was so cold
Your tone was so smug
I thought you might laugh at any moment
Fuck you for breaking your promises
Fuck you for hurting me
Fuck you for coming back
Fuck you
Fuck your excuses
Fuck your reasons
Fuck^your pain
I hope it hurts when you leave this world. I hope you find eternity unbearable.