The light you see when you open your eyes...

Well Howdy Doo everyone!

Some of you may remember me, but I won't flatter myself to think many of you do. It's been a long road since I stopped dumping my thoughts and energy into Tescos. Wow, I haven't thought of those times in a while now. I had a lot of fun back then being apart of a great community. We even had our fair share of drama! When members you think are cool start using your home address when applying for credit cards (without asking first)... it kinda makes you feel like you should focus on the world in front of you.

So that's what I've been doing.. keeping my eyes open to the real world around me. Focusing on friendships I can have right in front of me. Hence my lack of posting and contributing. I mean no offense here, as I think I went to extremes.. and I miss the laughs and warmth that Tescos would bring to me.

Okay, now it's time to catch you up (stop reading now if you really don't give a fuck)...

I've spent the last couple of years really taking a hard look at my life, and trying to make sense of it all. Why did I feel like so much of my world was made up.. fake.. imaginary. As if I were acting out a role that I had to wear during certain times. When I started admitting that I had mis-represented myself into a life I didn't agree with or enjoy, things start getting messy.

The conflict and confusion grew when I realized that I only loved ONE aspect of my life, and that's being the best father I can be for my little Bean. Some of you may remember my constant posts of pictures of her. Well, here's one to catch you up on how much she's grown (then I'll get back to my tale):
http://lh6.google.com/jeremy.running/RrdgzHXitlI/AAAAAAAADJw/GW32wVqmFbY/s288/_MG_8407.jpg

Anyway, back to life. After months and months (years in hindsight) of petty fights, mistrust, and constant let-downs and disappointments, my wife and I are getting a divorce. We're in the thick of it right now, so my world is a circular vortex of intense emotion, spinning at the speed of a snail.

I see the future though. I'll be moving out of the 'burbs and will be setting up myself and Maysen in a fantastic home in a community in SE Portland, Oregon. I'll open my life to learning as much as I can about the world and its people, and I will be able to teach Maysen all of it. My wife and I will continue to be committed to making our girl the priority, over emotion. And believe me, with the shit I put my wife through in this past year and a half.. she has NO reason to be civil. But she is. I think through this process, we're both just wanting to get through it and be done.

So here I am, still living at home. Every time I walk into a new room, I feel my body slicing through the thick tension in the air. So I'll be moving to my own place very soon. This whole process started back in mid-July, so we've been living this way for a while. It's time for a change. I've got the craigslist RSS feed telling me of any open rooms in SE Portland, so I'm keeping my eye out.

Oh.. and somewhere back in all that drama, I picked up photography.

Jeremy Running Photography (http://www.jeremyrunning.com)

http://lh3.google.com/jeremy.running/Rk_x-MQjueI/AAAAAAAAA9E/sIsCr3prtMo/s400/_MG_4870.jpg

http://lh5.google.com/jeremy.running/RpHSASHCPwI/AAAAAAAACj0/zbp5zciyx74/s400/_MG_7675.jpg

http://lh6.google.com/jeremy.running/RnfoiFOa6AI/AAAAAAAABaE/RDvSbm6P3R0/s400/_MG_6288.jpg

http://lh6.google.com/jeremy.running/RnfoBFOa5iI/AAAAAAAABWQ/53fR8NhjTnI/s400/_MG_6524.jpg

http://lh6.google.com/jeremy.running/Rq_pqHXiswI/AAAAAAAAC_c/k5LZKmRrFf4/s400/_MG_8177.jpg

Well, it'll be nice to spend some time catching myself up on everyone's happenings. Hope everyone is well!!

jezza

HOWDY DOO! Good to see you bro! Welcome to HELL!

hey Jezza, long time man.

hullo dude. welcome back

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Welcome back jezza :)

Welcome back Jezza. You owe us 20. On your face, Marine! :P (That's the punishment for AWOL around here I think... that and sexual favors for n00b)

HOWDY DOO! Good to see you bro! Welcome to HELL!

How did I know you'd be the first to reply? :alc:

Dr.X can wright you a prescription.
Smoke 2 joints before you smoke 2 joints, then smoke 2 more.

Enjoy bliss. Sure, you will still have all your problems but they will sorta just be like background white noise...

:nrocks:

He was living in a single room with three other individuals.
One of them was a male and the other two, well, the other two were females.
God only know what they were up to in there. And furthermore Hyperx, I wouldnt be the least bit surprised to learn that all four of them habitually smoked marijuana cigarettes....

He was living in a single room with three other individuals.
One of them was a male and the other two, well, the other two were females.
God only know what they were up to in there. And furthermore Hyperx, I wouldnt be the least bit surprised to learn that all four of them habitually smoked marijuana cigarettes....

REEFER!

Funny how a thread about my life suddenly becomes all about stinky weed.

It would be funnier if it DIDN'T LOL AMIRITE? :D

wb, blah blah, that last picture is off the hook, what r u shooting with

Welcome back to the fold...

The tunnel pic looks like the red line MAX... I don't recognize the tunnel though (unless it's some weird shot of the zoo and I've never looked up). Must be some area I never go into.

That last picture is pretty awesome--the fuck is on her head? Cheers.

wb, blah blah, that last picture is off the hook, what r u shooting with

Thanks ! That shot is one of my favorites too. That little girl was so beautiful, I knew I HAD to get the shot of her.

My equipment:


Canon 400D (Digital Rebel XTi)
17-85mm f/4-5.6 IS USM
50mm f/1.4
70-300mm f/4-5.6 IS USM


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The tunnel pic looks like the red line MAX... I don't recognize the tunnel though (unless it's some weird shot of the zoo and I've never looked up). Must be some area I never go into.

Yup, that's exactly what it is, the red MAX line. I shot that one in the Washington Park (and Zoo) stop. Look up next time, the lines are incredible! I was lucky to snag that shot when no one was around. I tried some where people were blurred out from movement too, but none were as clean and sharp as that one.

That last picture is pretty awesome--the fuck is on her head? Cheers.

Hahaha.. That was taken at a music festival deep in the forest (The String Cheese Incident's weekend run at Horning's Hideout). From what I could tell, it is simply a headdress made out of peacock feathers. There are always tons of peacocks wandering around this property.

Either that or it's just a really fucked up yamika. On a girl.. In a gangsta lean... Yeah.

That is ridiculously awesome.